dreadpirateryan

just another night of thinking too much and sleeping not enough.

you stand before me like the empire state building a foundation of intellect the incense of your breath forces me to meditate on the raw and brutal passion punishing me this is my penance for actions untaken idolatry makes me a cannibal i wish to feast on your essence you are my Judas and I will enter the city of Dis with a lurking spiteful revenge. my circus days are over performing tricks on the high-wire and waiting for the applause that never comes.

that I could weep solid gold tears to save humanity.  but then again, how can the material save the soul?  this world, a struggling ball of self- destruction. salvation are the dreams of the fearful. power are the dreams of the inadequate. musical are the dreams of the self-respecting. so let me write of my dreams, of words powerful enough to justify my existence, of a love sprouting from the seeds of truth, and branches reaching such lofty heights, to be starved for air, in an ecstacy capable only in the mind.

and now the fangs are revealed the desires grow muscle, and ego. they will hold on to their illusions, no matter the cost. kingdoms can fall, bonds destroyed, I care not. And I am scared. I will lose everything.

i do not desire you. i desire chocolate. i desire understanding i desire reason and logic among my fellow men. my desires are things I can do without. science tells me you are flesh and bone but to me you more resemble the very white blood cells that protect me, the corpuscles that bring oxygen to my body, the electrical signals that tell my brain there is a reason to continue breathing. i can do without desires, but i could not finish this sentence without you.

i now understand the vampires obsession thick and salty, you are my vermillion ocean a bloody whore, you only bring pleasure. dabbing my lips, I kiss your neck, because with you, life tastes so much better.

a wife in sheeps clothing soft to touch, soft to taste desire's passion eating me finely chopped, like a blazon listen to the soothing music of the internal organs satisfying to the body, making ravenous the mind scream into the night wind that avails itself so fully to my naked torment, my ever-pleasing Goddess of whispers speak, oh soverign nation boundaries drawn, my army awaits invasion of your territory, i will overtake grind teeth with a fiery rain of ideals there was once a time i did not care so much.

i imagine two bodies, colliding with such force a release of energy so profound sublime happiness, words cannot describe light and shadows overpowered by their glory chaos and order at the mercy of their power past and future have been lost in this existence i will redefine love for the future lovers they will understand it as God.

fastforward this date to its finale let me end the expectation a kiss brings me grand visions of a future and an end of ancient misery rejection leaves its tail stuck in my skin as a reminder i will gather you in my arms like a mighty wind and float in your sea and fly in your sky those who call me hopeless do not understand the depths of my hope may this night endure like the crash of the waves and the soft sound of your voice in my head.